I'm back...

...with more resolve than anticipated!
ME here... back on MY View. Yes... I realize it's been awhile. Remember my post about not holding your breath?


I suppose my blog has been lacking in subject matter... to say the least. I guess either work, kids, G-babies, travel, business, thoughts or just mundane everyday life were more important than sharing on here, but those things happen. It's not like much of that changed... I just decided to make more of a commitment to share my thoughts, pics, rants and ramblings more often on here rather than to everyone around me. (I hear the cheering)


Latest news... Well, I have spent a lot of time thinking, soul searching, ranting and decision making over the last year and after discussing my latest decision with most of my family and friends... I can now share it here.


I will be leaving Arizona, my home and BF in March to travel the world, follow my dream, work on my photography and hopefully make a change through serving others. (Insert dramatic score of music here) Even if the change I hope to make affects only one person - I'm okay with that. (Insert heartfelt music score here)


It is not a decision that was made lightly or that even came as a surprise to those who know me best. I am extremely excited, and a little scared, to move forward with this next volume of my life. Every word, page, act and chapter so far has been more exciting than anyone could ever dream. The best part, by far, has been my children (all of them)... raising them, knowing them and watching them grow into the most wonderful, loving individuals I could ever have the privilege to know! AND... they support me in almost every decision I have ever made, with this one probably being one of the most difficult for them to understand. The next best part... is the man that has stood by my side through the last 25 years. Raising our 3 (at times more) children, putting up with my oh-so-MANY moods, making me laugh, making me angry, testing my patience, showing me restraint, keeping me grounded, trusting me to push him to take chances and most of all... supporting me through everything! He is my true friend! The fact that he supports me in pursuing my dreams proves that. The latest chapter has brought 4 (soon to be 5) beautiful, wonderful G-Babies to our family. They are full of hugs, kisses, love, excitement and innocence... and we are blessed to have them. We have made a decision to go our separate ways and if the future brings us back together... awesome! If not... that's okay too. 


Quite a few people have questioned our decision to remain together with a 'break up date', but I suppose we have always had a different relationship and apparently this is no different. We went into our relationship unconventionally and eventually fell in love. We actually exerted an effort in being 'faithful partners' and staying together through 'good times AND bad; sickness AND health; in joy as well as sorrow' and did it without the requirement of a *piece of paper. With all that said... we now have made a mutual decision to NOT stay together. I will be traveling, BF will be doing whatever it is he will be doing; our relationship of passion has changed over the last years, but our love for each other is still very much intact. No matter the extent of explanation, some people will get it, most won't; thus... it is what it is and it's our decision. We are happy and that is what matters! 


This decision was not made lightly... the impact on my family will be great, but me knowing they understand my reasons and them knowing that I won't be 'gone' from them forever makes it easier. I have always taught my children to be strong, follow their dreams, love others and most of all rely on God! The fact that I am doing just that... shows them that I practice what I preach. I believe I have always shown them that you fight for what you want and the fact that their father and I fought for our relationship shows them that I believe that as well. And with skype, blogs, pics, global phones, facebook, twitter and every other social medium that is out there... We will never be too far away from each other. 


I look forward to the next volume of my life and sharing it with anyone who wants to read about it... or ask about it. 


Til my next post... jlk


*Note: I am not against marriage, just those that look upon not being married as a sin. I'm sure that raised some disgruntled eyebrows and although I welcome your comments... that discussion/debate/topic is for another post.